Honey 🍯

 

This one is for you

 Whats it like to fall in love?

Well,

Its frightening

Its powerful

Its a little confusing

Maybe you’ve never felt this way before.

Maybe it starts with a thought

Or maybe a look

Maybe she grabs your hand

Maybe she looks you in the eyes

Maybe you want to kiss her, but not in a room full of people

Maybe you spend hours talking

Maybe she drops hints

You definitely know

You doubt it, you question it because falling in love is hard.

Or is it?

Maybe you’re already there

Maybe you’re just afraid because of how you love,

Deep

Passionate

Fiercely

You can’t stop it because before you’ve even said it you know you love her

Maybe she tells you how she feels

You think about kissing her

Maybe she wants you to

You kiss her

Maybe she loves it

You kissed her

Maybe she can’t stop thinking about it

You can’t

And then something happens

You open up

You lower the draw bridge, roll out the red carpet

There aren’t anymore maybes

She comes in

You show her around, you open all the doors, even the ones with the “DO NOT OPEN” signs

She tells you its fine, that she’ll open them with you

Then something happens

She lowers her draw bridge and does the same for you

You promise to be delicate with her, her heart, her feelings

She smiles

You kiss

I love you

Nothing

Whiskey

Barbells

Phone call

I love you too. It scares me how much I love you, but I love you

It makes you cry

She loves you and you love her

You take turns opening doors

Holding hands, kissing, I love you

Babe, Honey, Sweetheart, Baby, Gorgeous, Honey, Honey, Honey

Honey fills you with joy

She spends the night, you kiss, you cuddle, the maybes are gone because this is love

Sex

Cuddling, I love you babe, more than you know.

She spends the whole next day

I love you

I love you the most

I love you the mostest

You smile, you kiss her, she kisses you

It goes from fall to winter and snow starts to cover things

A green skirt a white shirt and maroon bed sheets

She lays there, you love her and she loves you

This time sex is different, its more intimate

She leaves, you tell her to drive safe

A Christmas party

She spends the night

I love you, I’m going to love you for the rest of my life

You mean it

She’s your girl and you’re her guy

Babe, you’re the love of my life

You mean it

Its a new year, you fight, you doubt yourself

She’s upset, she retreats a little within her walls

You go for coffee, she doesn’t talk much

Outside in the freezing cold you grab her and hold her tight

In the drive way she tells you how hurt she was to hear that, she tells you that she has something to tell you

You know what it is, you say nothing

You’re going to be a dad

A vacation, morning sickness, nausea, emotions, you see and say nothing

She tells you, happiness, dad

Positive

You’re going to be a dad she’s going to be a mom

The love of your life is giving you what you want most

Logic, we can’t

You want it

You’re scared

She’s scared

Maybe

No

5 Minutes to hear a heartbeat

5 Minutes

Sadness

Hate

Selfhate

More Sadness

You’re devastated but you won’t let her see that

More fighting

Maybe she’s going to hate you

Maybe she’s going to be mad at you

Maybe this is your fault

She does hate you

She is mad at you

This is your fault

You hate yourself

You should have done more

You hate yourself

Honey?

Panic

Anxiety

You hate yourself

You love her

You need her

Tell her!

Nothing

You hate yourself

More fighting

Anxiety

Honey?

Anxiety

Hate

Sadness

Scotch

Sadness

Tears

Yelling

You love her…

Maybe she loves you

Maybe she hates you

You hate you

The pots empty, no more honey

You hate yourself

No more Talking

No more Kissing

No more You

No more Her

No more Love? 

No, thats always been there

What remains is hope,

Hope, that you’ll see that this wasn’t your fault

This wasn’t your fault

What remains is the love you had… still have

Its what you’ll need to forgive yourself

Its what you’ll need to rebuild a part of yourself

Its whats been inside of you all along

Its why you can’t get her out of your mind

Love is hard, hate is easy and you’ve never taken the easy road, when you try it just doesn’t work

I love you Honey

Thank you