In many ways I don’t even notice that I’m away from home. Most of the locals speak english and I’ll just say that trying to speak Finnish is not the easiest thing to do.
I still don’t have my luggage, so thats adding to a growing list of expenses, we also don’t have wifi. We however did get cell service today. So get this, you can buy unlimited data for 20 Euros …. Canada needs to step up their game. Thats the prepaid type deal. To get an actual phone plan or even internet plan you need to be a Finnish citizen. Weird. Its also very quiet here. There isn’t a lot of background noise. No loud cars, no sirens, or airplanes. Its nice, peaceful and relaxing.
I’m happy and its so cool to be away, to be living in such a beautiful country. Putting things in my rearview mirror was nice. However there are somethings you just can’t run away from, or cast aside. If you’ve been following this blog you know where its heading. Its only been a few days, but the whole plane ride here she was on my mind, most of the day yesterday she was on my mind. We’ve been broken up for what feels like forever. Its something I’ve come to terms with. I’ve even come to terms with she might have started to fall out of love with me. Thats not something I want. But if theres one thing in life that I know for sure its, we don’t always get what we want. Its shit. In a year I might be with someone else, I might be alone, I might be with her, I might be here again, I don’t know. Theres a little excitement about that. Some sadness too. She might miss me right now but who knows. I miss her, thats all I know.
She’s a big part of my world. I’d really like if there was an off switch on the emotions I’m feeling. Or a pause button. It would be nice but its not the way the world works. I promised her that I’d come home to her, and I think about that all the time. I hope its a promise I can keep. I hope that I’ll be able to deliver on her dream … Thats all I’ve got though… a little bit of hope and a whole lot of stupid.
I’m here in Jyvaskala Finland. On the adventure of a life time… literally going to the grocery store was an experience. I’m here but I can’t help but think about what I’m going to be in 4 months.