A year ago if I told you we’d be here, would you believe me?
No, but you knew it waspossible
If I would’ve said that I’d stop being able to make you laugh
That my one superpower, making you smile no longer existed
Now instead of showing you that love, I do my best to show you nothing
I’m sorry if that hurts
If I told you a year ago that we’d be sitting at opposite ends of the city, me staring at a screen, you … Who knows
If I told you a year ago that we’d no longer be in love, what would you say?
Possible, but I hope not
What do we have now?
It isn’t love
It isn’t hate
Maybe a juxtaposition
I can close my eyes and hear you call me, “honey”.
Even now, when just the thought of you brings a sense of melancholy
I can close my eyes and hear you call me, “babe”.
This is hard
I can’t love you
I don’t hate you
It’s just different, please; let that be enough
A year ago we were different people
I know you’re doing okay
I hope you’re doing okay
Please be doing okay, where ever you are
You haven’t tried to make me laugh
You haven’t tried to make me smile
You avoid me, and maybe I avoid you, maybe this is harder that we thought
We knew this was possible, but I’m happy
I want to see you smile
I don’t think I can
I’m not ready
Why has this been so easy for you